Well, today has been a day to say the very least. Had a pre-scheduled appointment with my endocrinologist this morning that led to a MRI of my brain this afternoon. I have been having some "spells" with weird symptoms as of late and R was not liking the looks of them. So I asked him to come with me to the Dr. this morning. He did. This is a huge sacrifice for him because his work is very demanding of his time. He came and was there for me at BOTH appointments. Lesson #1 for today: I learned that my husband is loving me like Christ loves the church: sacrificially.
So, we find out I need the MRI this afternoon at 3:00 p.m. at 11:00 a.m. I knew I wanted R with me, but not J. I was afraid he would see me get scared or start crying and didn't want him to deal with that. So I call my mom, who is a teacher, at school and tell her what's going on. She says she is leaving school and will be on the road ASAP. She gets here and plays with J all during the test and then stays until after supper to let me rest a little. Lesson #2 for today: I learned that no matter how old I am, my mom will always want to be there when I need her and will do all she can to help even when she feels helpless. She showed me a hard part of being a mom today. Sometimes you just have to sit and wait while your child is struggling.
I have some time between my original appointment and the MRI, so I get J from school and come home to fix us lunch. While he's watching his shows and having his lunch, I decide to have my lunch with the Lord. I'm reading His Word and seeing how He is constantly providing for His children. So I pray to Him and tell Him whatever His plan, I trust Him even though I am REALLY scared. R gets home to take me for the procedure. I get my iv and then go back for the test. As I'm laying on the machine tears start seeping out of my eyes. I try to hold it together until I get in the tube because I don't want the lady doing the test to see me crying and think I'm gonna freak out on her (which, honestly, could be a possibility). She gets me all set up and sends me in. I immediately start praying. Just saying "Jesus" over and over getting a little choked up. But felt completely at peace in crying with Him. I knew He was ok with my having a hard time. Lesson #3 for today: God is ok with me being emotional about the journey I am on with Him as long as I know He is there with me and am willing to trust Him in it.
So the procedure is over and we are told we will know something in the morning. I go home with a HUGE headache. FYI it is LOUD in the MRI tunnel. I'm lying on the couch talking with my mom when the phone rings. It's my doctor's office. The nurse could not get the words out fast enough that the MRI was clear. No tumors. No MS. REJOICE!!!!! Lesson #4 for today: The Lord showed me that He is in every moment of my day. He was just as real to me in the MRI tunnel as He was when I got the good news that He was still providing me with good health.
I'm so thankful that the Lord made this day and allowed me the chance to see and learn each of these lessons. The promises of God being with us through each moment and His grace being sufficient are worth more than I can put into words, so until you experience it for yourself, this may just sound really nice to you. Once you do experience this, and you will, you will know what a treasure walking with the Lord truly is.
Here's to tomorrow and whatever it brings.
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